16 Year old Jessie….
She sits in front of her bedroom mirror in disgust…. She couldn’t
get her hair to look like she wanted it to…. She cried…she got angry….she hacked
at her shoulder length hair with a pair of paper scissors with not a care that
they could slip and cut her throat in the process…..
Her mother heard the destruction behind closed doors….it was
nothing new to hear 16 year old Jessie having a shit-fit fuelled by anxiety and
self loathing that her visible appearance was not up to the standards of the
Mother removed the scissors from tightly gripped and
slightly sweaty palms and replaced them with a hug, and pursued to get dad’s
clippers and give Jessie the full “Britney treatment” as she stared blankly into
the mirror…blank. Blank but broken and full of regret of what her mind had just
let her do without even a second thought.
28 year old Jessie.
She sits in front her bedroom mirror….smiling….. her hair
never sits the way she quite wants it to… but she doesn’t give a fuck.
Big grown up Jessie isn’t so worried by the standards the world
holds, and is just glad to be passed the days, weeks, years where her thoughts
and actions were fuelled by worry, anxiety and emptiness are long gone…kind of..
Big adult Jessie is going to sit in front of the bedroom
mirror…. And she is going to shave her little noggin…and she is going to smile
brighter than ever before.
She is going to smile that she is strong, proud, beautiful and
She’s going to smile because she is going to raise a million
dollars (maybe a few thousand will do, but ya know, we gotta aim high!) to go
to people similar to 16 year old Jessie… the people who’s minds are in what
feels like constant battle with their hearts.
She wants the world
to know that talking openly and honestly about mental health is not attention
seeking….. if you need attention,seek it from every source possible to get you
the help you need and deserve…. It is nothing but brave to be able to stand strong
and to live and tell stories of hope and survival to the people who need it.
THANK YOU to the Mental Health Foundation New Zealand for
all you do for the well being of our beautiful country and its beautiful people.
LETS SHAVE N SAVE SOME LIVES!
Thank you to my Supporters
Wiggy And Gobs
West Coast Mom
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